{"id":131,"date":"2006-09-17T00:15:02","date_gmt":"2006-09-17T05:15:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.pinkhairedgirl.net\/?p=131"},"modified":"2006-09-17T00:15:02","modified_gmt":"2006-09-17T05:15:02","slug":"i-think-ive-become-captivatingly-wild-at-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=131","title":{"rendered":"i think i&#8217;ve become captivatingly wild at heart"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>ever tire of being single?<\/p>\n<p>disclaimer: before you keep reading just know this post comes from the emotional heart of an almost 22 year old, incredibly single christian girl who just watched &#8220;Run Away Bride&#8221;. a movie about a girl who leaves 5 men at the alter&#8230; yes 5 &#8230; and gets Richard Gere at the end. yes&#8230; i know it is supposed to be a romantic comedy&#8230; but what is discouraging when watching something like that is I can&#8217;t even get one guy. this may bring some embarrassment later &#8211; to reveal my heart like this &#8211; but this is where i&#8217;m at.  thanks for reading.<\/p>\n<p>why am i <strong>SO<\/strong> single? no&#8230; not just single&#8230; i can&#8217;t even get a date!!<\/p>\n<p>on a good day i can usually say, &#8220;oh i am quite content in my single-hood&#8221; and mean it&#8230; but if i were to say that at this moment&#8230; a lightning bolt would shoot from the sky and hit me directly between the eyes&#8230; and since there are storms in the area i am not going to take that risk. friends&#8230; i hate being single. there&#8230; some honesty for you in a world of &#8216;run around&#8217; and fine print.<\/p>\n<p>do guys have this problem? i am sure they do but i can&#8217;t see it being as bad&#8230; since in the Christian world guys have the power. don&#8217;t get me wrong&#8230; women have power in it too, but according to John and Stasi Eldridge&#8230; if a girl wants to be asked out&#8230; she has to wait patiently to be &#8220;rescued&#8221; and &#8220;pursued&#8221; by letting the guy &#8220;lead&#8221;. i am pretty much okay with that whole concept, but too often the guy doesn&#8217;t do it.<\/p>\n<p>i think if i had been asked out on a date recently some things would feel different but since i am going on 22 years with no great dates to really speak of&#8230; it&#8217;s hard. it has taken 22 years to realize that there is nothing wrong with wanting to feel desirable&#8230; to be captivating&#8230; to be fought for&#8230; to be rescued&#8230; to be pursued!!! i want to be cherished&#8230; to unveil my beauty&#8230; be seen as strong and be a part of the adventure and passion of romance and relationship.<\/p>\n<p>i am not really seeking advice or encouragement&#8230; because i&#8217;ve read it (book after book) and heard pretty much all of it (from my sappy, happily married friends) &#8230; they are great words of advice and encouragement but sometimes i just want to talk about it and expose my heart.  so that&#8217;s why i post today.<\/p>\n<p>Warning: Sappy Lyrics<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You Can&#8217;t Hurry Love&#8221;<br \/>\n &#8211; The Supremes, Phil Collins or Dixie Chicks &#8211; whoever you prefer. :)<\/p>\n<p>I need love, love<br \/>\noh, ease my mind<br \/>\nAnd I need to find time<br \/>\nsomeone to call mine;<\/p>\n<p>How many heartaches must I stand<br \/>\nBefore I find the love to let me live again<br \/>\nRight now the only thing that keeps me hanging on<br \/>\nwhen I feel my strength, ooh, it&#8217;s almost gone<\/p>\n<p>No, I cant bear to live my life alone<br \/>\nI grow impatient for a love to call my own<br \/>\nBut when I feel that I, I can&#8217;t go on<br \/>\nWell these precious words keep me hanging on<\/p>\n<p>Now love, love don&#8217;t come easy<br \/>\nBut I keep on waiting<br \/>\nAnticipating for that soft voice<br \/>\nTo talk to me at night<br \/>\nFor some tender arms<br \/>\nhold me tight<br \/>\nI keep waiting<br \/>\nOoh, till that day<br \/>\nBut it ain&#8217;t easy (Love don&#8217;t come easy)<br \/>\nNo, you know it ain&#8217;t easy<\/p>\n<p>My mama said<br \/>\nYou can&#8217;t hurry love<br \/>\nNo, you&#8217;ll just have to wait<br \/>\nShe said love don&#8217;t come easy<br \/>\nBut it&#8217;s a game of give and take<br \/>\nYou can&#8217;t hurry love<br \/>\nNo, you&#8217;ll just have to wait<br \/>\nJust trust in a good time<br \/>\nNo matter how long it takes<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>ever tire of being single? disclaimer: before you keep reading just know this post comes from the emotional heart of an almost 22 year old, incredibly single christian girl who just watched &#8220;Run Away Bride&#8221;. a movie about a girl who leaves 5 men at the alter&#8230; yes 5 &#8230; and gets Richard Gere at&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=131\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">i think i&#8217;ve become captivatingly wild at heart<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[165,45,56],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-131","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-box-of-chocolates","category-personal-growth","category-singleness","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/131","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=131"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/131\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=131"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=131"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=131"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}