{"id":1757,"date":"2008-10-22T05:00:19","date_gmt":"2008-10-22T10:00:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.pinkhairedgirl.net\/?p=1757"},"modified":"2008-10-22T05:00:19","modified_gmt":"2008-10-22T10:00:19","slug":"security-breach","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=1757","title":{"rendered":"Security Risk"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am an insecure person. <\/strong><\/p>\n

No, this isn’t some new epiphany from God. This is something that I’ve known forever. And is the thing I hate most about myself. I am not even sure why I am sharing about this now other than it was heavy on my heart tonight.<\/p>\n

My insecurities stem from any number of things. And probably the worst thing you can do is spell them out and acknowledge them, but I am going to:<\/p>\n

1. I am insecure in my relationships with people.<\/strong> I have been burned in the past. Hurt, broken and abused. I am always waiting for the next person in my life that I truly care about to drop me. And I truly believe I end up damaging relationships as a result of this one.<\/p>\n

2. I am insecure in my career.<\/strong> I was the “good child” — the one that was supposed to be the success. But most of the time I feel like a big, fat failure cause I don’t have “the title” and six-figure salary.<\/p>\n

3. I am insecure in my own skin.<\/strong> What can come across as arrogance is really shyness and insecurity. I am awkward and find it terribly difficult to say, “thank you” when I am complemented. I have always been overweight, shorter than everyone else and the youngest in whatever setting I am placed in. While all are not bad things, its definitely been the cause of insecurity.<\/p>\n

4. I am insecure when asked to be vulnerable.<\/strong> On my blog is one thing – that is on my own terms. But get me in true intimacy like a small group or a new group of friends and I close up. Goes back to #1.<\/p>\n

5. I am even insecure in my relationship with God.<\/strong> Am I really forgiven for the sinful things I’ve done? Really? Surely not if He can truly see what I’ve done.<\/p>\n

While I know I am not defined by my past, or defined by how people see me, or defined by my past or future sins\u2013my heart’s prayer is that I would freakin’ get over myself and so I can live in what is True.<\/p>\n

The Truth that I teach in counseling sessions.
\nThe Truth that I preach from my blog.
\nThe Truth that I share with my brother.
\nThe Truth that security can’t be found here on earth.
\nThe Truth that security lies in Him and Him alone.<\/p>\n

It is exhausting living in the shadow of insecurity. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. Psalm 25:20 <\/em><\/p>\n

Your own experiences and comments are always welcome.<\/h5>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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