In the last year I have lost 25 pounds.
\nIn the last year I have gained back 27 pounds.<\/p>\n
I don’t get caught up in the number on the scale.
\nI don’t get caught up in the tag size on my jeans.
\nI don’t even get caught up with how I look in the mirror.<\/p>\n
I just get caught up in the reality that my weight will likely always be a battle. Even when I have had immense success with my weight like I did early this year (losing 25 pounds and fitting into a pair of jeans I haven’t since middle school), the moment I give in the littlest bit\u2014it all comes back on.<\/p>\n
I feel like if I don’t starve myself. Or deprive myself. Or have pay for a gym membership… I am judged by society for not trying because I am still overweight. When in reality… I am probably healthier on paper than the size 2 girl who never has to watch a single calorie.<\/p>\n
I can’t help but be a little frustrated. I look at my family… those I resemble the most… and see that this weight card is something that has been handed down a many many years. Both genetically and by example. <\/strong><\/p>\n I will be the first to admit that I don’t eat healthy… every day. I don’t workout… every day. But I do feel I balance the good with the bad pretty well. Even going as far as omitting certain fatty meats from my diet\u2014adopting a pescetarian lifestyle.<\/p>\n But it is never enough on it’s own.<\/p>\n Unless I am… counting every calorie… watching every Weight Watcher point …exercising five or more days a week …or being hard on myself… the weight stays on or packs on all the more.<\/p>\n As so many years before it\u20142010 will begin another year of me trying to get this right. And I’ll be honest, I don’t wanna do it. But I know that in order to be the best and healthiest me, I have to be more proactive than others. It is how I am created. And I know just as so many other thorns, this too is something God wants me to put my full trust in Him about.<\/strong><\/p>\n So, if you’re finding yourself as frustrated as I am… let’s try something together…<\/em><\/p>\n If you have an iPhone get the free Lose it! App<\/a> and add me: crystal.renaud(at)gmail.com\u2014to your friends. A lot of people are using it. You can track your weight (eek), what you eat and how you exercise\u2014and at the same time, keep each other accountable.<\/p>\n I will be plugging in each stair I step and every Oreo I eat into this thing.<\/p>\n The good… the bad… the ugly… real life.<\/p>\n If I succeed in 2010… then awesome.<\/p>\n And I hope you do as well.<\/p>\n In the last year I have lost 25 pounds. In the last year I have gained back 27 pounds. I don’t get caught up in the number on the scale. I don’t get caught up in the tag size on my jeans. I don’t even get caught up with how I look in the mirror.… Continue reading Just Let Me Have a Freaking Oreo<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[26,41,63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3630","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-diets","category-lose-it","category-weight","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3630","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3630"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3630\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3630"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3630"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3630"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nI can’t help but be a little mad.
\nI can’t help but be a little sad.<\/em><\/p>\nAnd I know I am not alone. <\/h3>\n
But I am not going to hide it if I don’t. <\/h3>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"