{"id":4522,"date":"2010-05-08T14:41:42","date_gmt":"2010-05-08T20:41:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dirtygirlsministries.com\/blog\/?p=4522"},"modified":"2010-05-18T00:06:56","modified_gmt":"2010-05-18T06:06:56","slug":"temptation-is-inevitable%e2%80%94are-you-prepared","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=4522","title":{"rendered":"My Relapse: From Temptation to Sin"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>In light of my church using my story in a <a href=\"http:\/\/www.westsidefamilychurch.com\/recentmessages.html\" target=\"_blank\">message series<\/a><\/em><em> recently\u00a0and my own desire to be transparent (even in the areas that aren&#8217;t pretty) &#8230; I share with you my experience with a relapse.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>I&#8217;m not perfect. <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>The evening of February 22, 2009 \u2014 almost 6 years after I left pornography and my other sexual addictions behind \u2014 I had relapse.<\/p>\n<p>I had just got home from a whirlwind trip.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>I was stressed.<\/li>\n<li>I was exhausted.<\/li>\n<li>I was lonely.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><strong>It was the perfect storm for an addict.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>And I remember the rituals begin to unfold in my mind. The deep emotions that I was feeling in that moment were so strong I could taste them. But instead of connecting with my accountability partner or doing a redirecting exercise or more importantly going to God &#8230; I chose to go against everything I knew to do&#8230; and went to the thing that I even <strong>knew<\/strong> would leave me empty.<\/p>\n<p>It ended as quickly as it began. And it isn&#8217;t something I&#8217;ve told to maybe one or two people since. And it isn&#8217;t my intention to simply air my dirty laundry out here today. I have a lot of lose by sharing this especially given the recent coverage that DGM has received.<\/p>\n<p>But I share it today because it is something I hope you, the person who is in recovery and working toward sobriety, will read and learn from. And I also share it because even though I slipped, I didn&#8217;t allow the enemy to rob me of my mission and my call to begin this ministry. Which I see now is exactly what the enemy wanted to have happen.<\/p>\n<p><em><strong>But His grace is still sufficient and He is power is made perfect in our weakness. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>Temptation never ends. At least it is my experience and observation of others that it never does. And while temptation is not a sin&#8230; acting on your temptation is. The enemy isn&#8217;t clever. He will use what he knows works to break you down. Having solid accountability in your life is vital as is having a trusting relationship with Jesus Christ. Those two things will be your life preserver when temptation comes.<\/p>\n<p>Because temptation is inevitable.<\/p>\n<h3>Are you prepared?<\/h3>\n<p>&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.covenanteyes.com\/?promocode=dirtygirls\"><strong>Covenant Eyes<\/strong><\/a><br \/>\nCovenantEyes Accountability differs from filtering in that it doesn&#8217;t block any websites you visit. While you&#8217;re online, CovenantEyes software works in the background, recording and &#8216;scoring&#8217; every site you visit. Once a week, your accountability partner will get a report listing the sites you&#8217;ve visited, and you and your partner can view these reports online at any time. Together you&#8217;ll learn to use the Internet with integrity. If you need filtering, CovenantEyes also has a filtering option as well.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/x3pure.com\/118-0-1-3.html\"><strong>X3Pure<\/strong><\/a><br \/>\nX3pure is the first online, confidential, streaming-video solution for dealing with pornography addiction. This powerful online workshop helps you take each important step toward recovery from your pornography addiction and is accessible from any Internet-connected computer at any time. X3pure includes a copy of Safe Eyes software that is good for up to 3 computers.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/x3watch.com\/x3watch.html\"><strong>X3Watch<\/strong><\/a><br \/>\nX3watch is an accountability software program helping with online integrity. Whenever you browse the Internet and access a site, which may contain questionable material, the program will record the site name, time, and date the site was visited. A person of your choice (an accountability partner) will receive an email containing all possible questionable sites you may have visited within the month.<\/p>\n<p><strong><a href=\"http:\/\/www.churchteams.com\/Login.asp?oID=2621&amp;sID=westside&amp;limit=Y&amp;page=GroupBrowseNew.asp?filter=y~q23230=105277\">Kansas City Support Group<\/a><\/strong><br \/>\nIf you are a woman struggling with a pornography\/sexual addiction in the Kansas City area, we will be having a special summer edition of &#8220;Women&#8217;s Victory Over Porn Addiction&#8221; on Tuesday evenings beginning May 25 at 6:30pm. We&#8217;ll study The L.I.F.E. Guide for Women by Marnie Ferree. To order workbook &amp; register <a href=\"http:\/\/www.churchteams.com\/Login.asp?oID=2621&amp;sID=westside&amp;limit=Y&amp;page=GroupBrowseNew.asp?filter=y~q23230=105277\">click here <\/a><em>(and scroll to the bottom of the page)<\/em>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In light of my church using my story in a message series recently\u00a0and my own desire to be transparent (even in the areas that aren&#8217;t pretty) &#8230; I share with you my experience with a relapse. &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; I&#8217;m not perfect. The evening of February 22, 2009 \u2014 almost 6 years&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=4522\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">My Relapse: From Temptation to Sin<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[180,183],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4522","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-accountability","category-crystal-renaud","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4522","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4522"}],"version-history":[{"count":10,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4522\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4526,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4522\/revisions\/4526"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4522"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4522"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4522"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}