{"id":5719,"date":"2013-06-19T10:24:19","date_gmt":"2013-06-19T16:24:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dirtygirlsministries.com\/blog\/?p=5719"},"modified":"2013-06-19T22:57:45","modified_gmt":"2013-06-20T04:57:45","slug":"the-crippling-effects-of-pride-and-fear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=5719","title":{"rendered":"The Crippling Effects of Pride and Fear"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Last night I had a come to Jesus meeting\u2026 with Jesus. And I\u2019ll be honest with you. It\u2019s been a long time since I have sat down vulnerable before Him.<\/p>\n<p>I had to go to Him with a very humble heart knowing that it was me who had wandered. It was me who hadn\u2019t come to Him with every, single need. It was me who allowed pride and fear keep me from receiving His blessing.<\/p>\n<p>He didn\u2019t go anywhere.<\/p>\n<p>I did.<\/p>\n<p><strong>So last night in prayer and worship\u2026 <\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>I confessed the sins I had been too arrogant to admit were sins and received once again a grace I do not deserve.<\/li>\n<li>I asked forgiveness for harboring bitterness toward my brothers and sisters in Christ and forgave them all by name.<\/li>\n<li>I admitted the absolute grief I feel about the loss of my grandparents and my brother\u2019s divorce which have been stealing my joy for months.<\/li>\n<li>I surrendered the fear that I have been entertaining every time I worried about finances (personal and ministry)\u2014big time as of late.<\/li>\n<li>I repented for crippling you by not pushing you all harder to take personal ownership of your recovery journeys.<\/li>\n<li>and finally\u2026 I stormed the throne on your behalf. That every woman who is in need of wholeness would find their way here and receive the wholeness she is seeking through Jesus Christ. Whatever that wholeness looks like (porn, masturbation, physical healing, emotional trauma, etc.)<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><strong>My chains are gone. I\u2019ve been set free. May I never go this long without weeping at my Lord\u2019s feet again. <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8211; \u2013<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Then, I was inspired this morning by fellow DGM\u2019er Jackie who decided to commit to a $5 a month donation. She wrote:<\/strong><\/p>\n<blockquote><p>\u201cThere may come a time when hubby will ask [about this donation] \u2026 that is the time I will say \u201cHoney, we need to talk.\u201d I feel less and less shame. I had a problem with porn (like apparently so many people) though usually not considered a female issue but that\u2019s because women draw the curtains and lock the doors so to speak \u2026 but if hubby asks I will come clean. By the power of God\u2019s\u00a0GRACE, and Jesus living inside me, cleaning house and conforming me to His image, none of what I used to do appeals to me any more. Praise God and Praise\u00a0DGM! I have found a safe haven and I do not want it to go away. I pray\u00a0ALL\u00a0will give\u00a0SOME.&#8221;<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\">All will give <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">some<\/span>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Part of recovery is taking\u00a0<em>responsibility<\/em> (step #4 in S.C.A.R.S.) and part of taking responsibiliy is taking personal ownership of your recovery. That is why I present challenges like, \u201c<em>If you are thankful for this place, please give back<\/em>.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><strong>It\u2019s not enough to take anymore.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Taking is the behavior of an addict. Generosity is the behavior of the free. And if we don\u2019t challenge you to give back, we are doing you a disservice in your recovery walk.<\/p>\n<p>You might think that $5 a month is \u201cpittance\u201d as Jackie called it. But that could not be further from the truth. It\u2019s not about the dollar amount.\u00a0<strong>It\u2019s about your heart.<\/strong> Any gift given from a place of thankfulness, is\u00a0NOT\u00a0pittance.<\/p>\n<p>We know that regardless of the $ amount, it\u2019s a sacrifice. And if everyone would give a little, we would have much. Together.<\/p>\n<p><strong><a href=\"http:\/\/wholewomenministries.com\/donate\" target=\"_blank\">GIVE\u00a0NOW<\/a> or\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/32auctions.com\/wholewomenmin\" target=\"_blank\">JOIN\u00a0THE\u00a0AUCTION<\/a> or <a href=\"http:\/\/dirtygirlsministries.com\/?page_id=874\" target=\"_blank\">BUY A RAFFLE TICKET<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Jackie went on to say:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><em>&#8220;Praise God for\u00a0DGM. When I overcame my nicotine addiction I used a website just like this to help me. IT\u00a0WORKED!\u00a0THIS\u00a0WORKS! Ladies we need this God ordained ministry, $5 a month from over 1,500 people adds up! Dig deep!&#8221;<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><strong>Amen.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Last night I had a come to Jesus meeting\u2026 with Jesus. And I\u2019ll be honest with you. It\u2019s been a long time since I have sat down vulnerable before Him. I had to go to Him with a very humble heart knowing that it was me who had wandered. It was me who hadn\u2019t come&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=5719\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">The Crippling Effects of Pride and Fear<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[227,180,6,234,233,193,183,191,44,47,48,194,205,65],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5719","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-227","category-accountability","category-addiction","category-auction","category-benefit","category-community","category-crystal-renaud","category-donate","category-ouch","category-porn","category-prayer","category-responsibilty","category-whole","category-women","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5719","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5719"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5719\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5723,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5719\/revisions\/5723"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5719"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5719"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5719"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}