{"id":694,"date":"2007-11-15T07:58:24","date_gmt":"2007-11-15T12:58:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.pinkhairedgirl.net\/?p=694"},"modified":"2007-11-15T07:58:24","modified_gmt":"2007-11-15T12:58:24","slug":"real","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/?p=694","title":{"rendered":"real"},"content":{"rendered":"

good old webster’s definition of real<\/strong>: genuine and authentic; not artificial<\/em><\/p>\n

i believe this blog was founded on that definition and i’ve been told throughout the couple years i’ve written, that this place is honest, authentic and unfearfully real. thank you. i am sincerely humbled any one time someone says they read this thing, let alone subscribe, link or comment.<\/p>\n

i don’t have any bombs to drop today but i do want to ask for your prayers. this has been a week of great, unexplainable loneliness and grief. a week where every turn i make is the wrong one. every word i say is the wrong one. every shoulder i cry on is the wrong one.<\/p>\n

seemingly.<\/p>\n

and its hard. its even harder to explain.<\/p>\n

at 4am i was awoken with the extraordinary need to be near God. if you know me at all… i would never wake up at 4am by my own will. i asked my God to comfort me in the only way He can. make me still<\/em> enough to feel Him. make me silent<\/em> enough to hear Him. make me wise<\/em> enough to listen to Him.<\/p>\n

after a lot of tears He confirmed something that i already knew about myself. that even if it seems like things don’t look like they “should” look like – it means i’m on the right track. after all… i’ve never been conventional… i’ve never flowed with the currant… i’ve never fit the mold. and this uncharacteristic desire to fit the mold, goes against my grain and how i was created.<\/p>\n

halle-frickin-lujah.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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the hug poem (excerpt)
\nbradley hathaway<\/p>\n

BEAR HUG ME MAN
\nTake your old school carpenter arms and
\nthrow them over my upper body leaving
\nmy arms dangling underneath
\nyours somewhere and I can barely move
\nthem because your squeezing so hard
\nAnd hold me, hold me here in your arms
\nuntil I start to cry because<\/p>\n

I WANT TO CRY<\/p>\n

But I just can\u2019t seem to do it on my own
\nI have been teary eyed once recently
\nbut not even enough for a drip down my cheek
\nTheres just hurt in my soul that needs to be purged
\nso hold me in this hold pose until the pain
\nis flowing from my eyes and nose<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

good old webster’s definition of real: genuine and authentic; not artificial i believe this blog was founded on that definition and i’ve been told throughout the couple years i’ve written, that this place is honest, authentic and unfearfully real. thank you. i am sincerely humbled any one time someone says they read this thing, let… Continue reading real<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[165],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-694","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-box-of-chocolates","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/694","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=694"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/694\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=694"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=694"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sherecovery.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=694"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}